Ello sweet and lovely Friendos 
Some moments, I love my brain, other moments, I really hate the way it treats me... 
Like, I know I want to do something. Or I know I need to do something. I make this plan of how I want to do it all. And then I agree that it's a good plan.
So, I start the plan. And it starts off well. Step one and two are a success. 
So then, onwards to step three. And that's when part of my brain goes like "nah, I've had enough now, I don't wanna do that other thing, I just dismiss it and then stress over it later, as then it really needs doing".
I just wanna do it as I planned it. Keep away the stress. Have it done ahead of time, so I can relax afterwards.
Even if it's "just" something that I want to do for me, that won't impact others in any way... Even then, I beat myself up over it.
Why does my brain think of this great plan, and then it won't want to finish all the steps? Why is it OK with the first two steps, before losing interest for the next one?
Is this the part where my ADHD part is rebelling against the autistic bits? Where the ADHD (my "focus" is apparently on the H bit, according to the diagnosis) is losing interest, as it's focused long enough and, hey, I did those two things, didn't I?!
Ah well, I pressured myself into not forgoing the third thing, and I'm doing it now. But I do hope I'll be able to focus enough on it to do a proper "job".
Yeah, my brain can be my best friend at times, but also my biggest enemy (especially when it's inviting the dark monster back into my life)...
Fankoos for your support 
on my journey through life...
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